it's a boy! but not a ruthless one.

Damn it! I wanted to be Machiavellian! Who said all Republicans are evil....

You Are The Opposite of Machiavellian

You don't have a cynical, power hungry bone in your body. Honest and kind, you believe being a good person is the most important thing. While your upstanding morals should be admired, be careful! You're at risk for being manipulated and toyed with.

How Machiavellian Are You?

You Are 60% Boyish and 40% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

Well. That settles it then. This explains why I like video games and hockey.

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

I am so addicted!


Okay, now for some real content.... Life is kind of boring, now that it's settling into a good old pattern. Who knew how much time family and friends could take up? Sheesh! And I'm only seeing Tim two or three times a week. Add to that the fact that I am trying to clean up all my CRAP, which is a horrendous task in and of itself, half-heartedly searching for an apartment and contemplating a house...?, and trying to fit in some time for reading and writing and watching our lovely satellite TV... I'm just so busy! I just don't have time to see my usual 2 CSIs a week plus Without a Trace and a South Park or two. And of course, whenever I think of watching TV, none of these things are on.

Work is going fine. The projects I've been working on are fun. There are some nice places in Lawrenceville to eat lunch, like the Coca Cafe. I am going there a lot and getting mochas and salads or wraps. It was also very cold, but they had me go buy a space heater and now I am nice and toasty.

It feels good to be back home. At first, it didn't really, and that was kind of surprising, but now I realize that I was bracing myself for the worst. I was not letting myself feel anything, in case I regretted my decision, since there was really no going back. Now that I'm getting more comfortable though... I'm feelin great. The funny thing is that I was initially feeling more comfortable at work, when I had a big project I was working through, and now everyday it seems like they might give me something else to do in half an hour, and all the waiting makes me feel uncomfortable and I am still feeling a little insecure. I think that's really just the nature of starting a job - it's always hard at first. But who knows? I have started two 'real' jobs so far, and I've felt insecure at both of them, although less so at Morningstar. But then again, sure, I can rag ten pages and change all the ligatures and set all the type. It's even a bit of a challenging exercise. But nobody was asking me to DESIGN ten pages. That's a bit different. So you see, I think this is all founded.

Ah, well. It doesn't really matter to me. I get to work between 8:30 and 9 and I am often the last one to leave even when I leave right at 5 o'clock, and the rest of my life is ALL MINE! And I am living it up!

Tomorrow I am going over Tim's to watch TV after work. I have a twisted sense of the good life. But so be it. :)